Heart stops

Sometimes I feel like I live with the light off. When someone turns it on I have to close my eyes because it's to bright.

I haven't watched TV (except yesterday, but I was sitting in the room with someone, not watching) for at least two weeks. I now realize that maybe stuff happened that I know nothing about . O_O
Somehow I was pretty peaceful without all the media around me. Facebook, but just the games, messenger, but only Mr X and Ms Z , oh and Little cute bear . The rest was sitting in the house, the exam, the studying. I feel very disconnected...but I am not frustrated now. I feel frustrated when I am connected. Maybe I don't post enough, maybe I am posting too much, I have to see the news, I have to talk about whatever and the disatiffaction settles in. It's easier to be unhappy when you strive to be everywhere, in everyway. I guess this is how you know what you are really interested in. You find youself doing only the things that matter.

When ice grows sideways

ana are mere

I was thinking today that we consider space infinite, but when it comes to looking "down", into cells, between electrons, we stop at some point and say this is ii, the undividable part. Between these undividable parts there is nothing really.They cling together though some sort of attraction. This is not why I am fascinated. The idea of an undividable part...so it's not made of something, it just is....how can that be? I mean isn't that some sort of definition for God, He is, he is not made, he makes...so finding God in the little things is actually quite a saying =))
Oau...I wish I was an undividable part. That I had the power of existing without preconditions and change. Oau! I am just in love with this.

Oh and I just adore these little claws near my window.

Growing wild and free

Sometimes I don't know what to say. That's why I love the arts.

Oh and that beautiful bouquet is now resting peacefully in my crystal vase.